no re-dos, just restarts

08 has been nothing but a roller coaster ride. its been up and downs, happy, sad, dramatic, anything but what i wanted it to be, but i've decided the past is the past, and it doesn't create my future. the future chapters of my life will be great because i've learned from the mistakes i've made this year and i will know not to make them in 09 and years to come. In 2008 i've:

-learned who my true friends are

-learned that i have the power to turn things around

-learned that life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass its about learning to dance in the rain,

-matured in some ways and became immature in other

-i've changed alot

-i've lost myself

-i still haven't learned how to dance in the rain,

-after this year, i really don't trust anything anyone has to say

-grown apart from alot of special people

2008 for me holds alot of bad memories, some good, alot of firsts (first kiss, first real breakup, etc) pain and hurt,happy moments sad moments, alot of screaming, restless nights. i've questioned myself many times. cry myself to sleep many times. I've reminded myself everyday that its all going to be worth it, its all going to be worth it. i have many goals for 09:

-find who i am,

-grow closer to God

-find my purpose

-learn to love instead of hate

-be who i am supposed to be and not what others think i should be

-be confident in who i am

-not let anyone else take away my identity

So when the clock strikes 12 on December 31, 2008 and 2009 begins, i will cry for the good memories, scream for the bad memories, have one last rememberence of everything, then let everything, the good, the bad, the hurt, pain, be the past and i will leave it in 2008. i will be completely changed in 2009!! 2008 is the past, i can't change it, recreate it, do anything different, thats the thing about life, no re-dos, just restarts!

Have a Happy New Years!!!

i love you!